put it all on my maxx out credit card

ok so nt only do i overeact .. i now hve no forgiving skills
GREAT
-audience.cheer-
anothr thing i gt a 'fixx it ticket' for
its nxt on my to do list
so
one of my x.s
(not as if i hve tht many)
messages me on myspace
he goes:
"how are you? We haven't talked in forever, and I just wanted to see how you were doing and everything. I know we didn't end things on a good note, but I hope that one day you will please forgive for what happened between us. I was wrong, and I admit it whole heartily. I was in love with you, and I still got love for you. Hope you respond to this message, ttyl Your ex-baby daddy"

mind you i havnt tlk to him him n about 2 yrs nw (my overeaction skills)
so im torn
i dnt wanna message him bakk im liik fuck tht, fuck u, fuck it, .. its nt tht im holding on to the past (no seriously) i jus dnt wanna go bakk in the past its ovr: u n me .. the situation .. the memory .. the sparkle.. watever its gone
i dnt feel it any need to go bakk
but october (my buddie) tells me.. i shud message him bakk.. nw im stuck.. i lookd at tht message liik 4 tiims n the last 5 hrs
i dnt wanna answr,, but is it the right thng to do? .. i woodnt want anyone to leav me hangn aftr i found the courage to message them aftr to yrs..........................
ugh this aint pretty
...............................................
so then there sullivan
he has a habit of nt answrin my txt messages
i thnk tht is sooo fuckn rude (along with say.n imma call u bakk n i dnt heard frm u for 3 days) ur n the middle of a fuck convo n someone jus doesnt answr
ugh torture i HATE IT with a PASSION
tht liik sittin dwn hvin latte.s with a fren .. ur both laughn havin a guud tiim n ur fren jus grabs her purse in wlks away
??????????????????????????????????????
-record.stops-
ok wtf hppn?
was it me?
dd i say sumthn to offend her?
ws she mad?
r we still frens?
shud i call?
shud i wait for her to call?
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
-blink.n.stare-
does anybody undrstnd
..
so he txt me i answrd we.re tlkn
he grabs his purse** (gt it .. he stops txtn)
3 hrs latr he cums bakk
'im liik LORD y do i let u piss me off this way .. imma txt u tomorrow guudnight'
he.s liik wat dd i do .. im liik nothn i dnt wanna argue imma jus ttyt .. so he calls .. omgsh we gt n the big ass arguement he tlk bout dnt yell (which i wasnt) at him .. his moma dnt yell at him he gon slap the shit out of me (wait wat?)
im liik ur nt
he says quit yelln
im liik gt off my fuckn fone then
n i hang up
ok wtf
was it tht serious
i ddnt wanna argue i no i sed tht 5 tiim b4 he sed he ws gon slap me
ugh
y
y me
y
..
so nw evrytiim i gt into it with sum one .. i thnk to myself.. it ws me overeacted
n i dnt hve gud judgement skills
guudnight
i gt hw. n my head hurts